When I thought about writing this post, I felt uneasy because I wanted to keep my deeply held thoughts to myself. But sometimes, I think it's good to share what's really going on. I have finished the first part of my story series The Altered Realities of a Dream-Maker and the second, but as I started on the third, I felt anxiety. I like this story, and it feels okay, but I don't love it. On top of that, when I finished the first story completely--polished, edited and everything--I found myself unable to press the publish button because it's shorter than I realized. It's only 16,000 words. Looking at things as a reader, if I bought something to read, I would like to get a bit more. On top of that, although I enjoy writing, I cannot deny the visual artist in me who likes to draw comics. I feel like both sides have been warring with each other ever since...I finished Mascara and that was like, five years ago. I'm getting to the point where I can't stand the conflict anymore. I'm paralyzed by indecision and constantly switching directions. So now I'm throwing up my hands like, "Enough of this!" That is, enough of trying to categorize
myself into one of two boxes. As a writer, I should be doing such and such. As an artist, I should be doing such and such. But I'm equally drawn to both. Also, realizing that right now I'm more into writing stories of novella and novelette length, I need to be more realistic. As a result of all these realizations, I think that the best way for me to go is to create collections. I'm going to start creating ebooks that hold a collection of work, from writing to comics and other stuff that comes out of my mind. At first, I was a bit hesitant about trying this because I've never seen anyone do something like that, but then I feel I have nothing to lose. I have completed work that I have not been able to share, mainly because I have had no clue of how to share it. So why not throw it all together and see what happens?